UNWANTED
Sometimes I feel like the world has turned its back on me. I feel like no one cares about me, feels like every little thing is more important than me, feels like I don't have problems, that I don't suffer, that I don't cry. But I do, and everytime gets harder, every second the pain increases, and it hurts so deep inside that it feels like a part of me. They sat its easier to like me, so why don't they? They say my problems aren't as big as the next, but they do exist. Seems like being the nice girl isn't worth anymore. So what can I do? I don't know how to be the bad one. Why can't I turn my back to the world? Why do I have to live in a fucking society? Why do I need to need other people?
I want vacations from myself. Is it possible? " Doctor, doctor wont you please prescribe me something, a day in life of someone else"
Somethimes I really wish to be someone else. I know that everyone has problems, but I want to know what feels like being took care. Sometimes I feel lik I've been forgotten and that just because I don't shout no one cares. In the other hand though, I can't be diferent, I can't scream and shout to get the attencion I need.
It seems like I'll have to put up with my (not so) secret pain.